Fearlessness

My thoughts recently have mulled over the question of "how long do I stay here?" and "when should I go back to the states?" and "when I go back how long should I stay or should I not go back to Haiti?" So many questions and in the midst of asking all those questions I hear a voice saying "Trust Me." I am human and I fail miserably and I fail at many times in trusting God. I do have faith that He will tell me how long and when at the right time. Of course, me being me I am impatient and want to know right now! But I can't so I must wait. I must have fearlessness and put my hope in God. I was reading a sermon of John Piper's today on Biblical womanhood and he was talking about what a woman of God should look like. Here's a little quote from it:

"So this portrait of Christian womanhood is marked first by hope in God and then what grows out of that hope, namely, fearlessness. She does not fear the future; she laughs at the future. The presence of hope in the invincible sovereignty of God drives out fear. Or to say it more carefully and realistically, the daughters of Sarah fight the anxiety that rises in their hearts. They wage war on fear, and they defeat it with hope in the promises of God. "

I want to be able to laugh at the future and not worry because my hope is my sovereign God. My future is secure in Him. Praise the Lord!! I will lay my thoughts and questions at His feet and let Him be the great and awesome God He is. So many times I try to do things my way but I need to just be quiet and still and wait on Him. Yes, be still...